♥Thursday, October 26, 2006
todae after sch straight away go bus stop take bus wif siew fong den i take bus to clementi find my godparents n eat their super delicious porridge..when on bus on e way, suddenly start rainin heavily again le..duno y recently kp suddenly rainin heavily de..izit god oso cryin for mi?? haiz..i mean regardin 'X'..haiz..hmm..den sat down a while after eatin to wait e rain gt smaller before gon bk to taman..after tt i took 154 go bk taman le..i went to superbowl mac n study..saw wei song n his frenz..n oso my smal didi..todae nt much ppl went down to superbowl coz tis few daes gt song ka..heard tt one of tmg ppl passed away..car accident or sth de..i oso nt too sure..aniwae after a while i saw 'X' outside mac..i was shock..i tink he did saw mi bt he act as if i'm invisible..i gt reali upset..reali feel like cryin..its so obvious tt he's ignorin mi TOTALLY..msg him oso nv reply de..haiz..feel like dyin man..miss him so so much..miss his hug, miss his kiss, miss e moments wif him ard..haiz..sobz.. :'( bt a while later he walk away le..duno is go ktv or pool..i oso nv go up c..coz no time le..its time for mi to leave to go cc for my dragon n lion dance trainin..todae again starts my continous lion n dragin dance trainin le..as usual, todae, tml n fri, dragon n lion dance trainin..haiz..sianz..so tirin man.. :(juz nw durin trainin break time, i gt nth to do so i go turn on my lappy..den 'ai li'(eric) coach go browse through my documents..n c my pics..den he saw al my secrets..i was shock..n worse stil..a lot ppl oso lookin too..jun shen kor kor oso..omg..reali veri pai sei lo..i reali blush man..dey saw my exs' photoz n e guyz i like in e past n oso nw which is 'X's photoz..omg omg omg..ahhh!!! gt ah kam, ah huat, nard, guo wei(lim) n 'X' photozZz!!! ahhh!!haiz..sianz..hopefully 'ai li' coach, jun shen kor kor n rest wil kp their mouths shut..hmm..den after trainin, change le, den as usual, walk hm alone frm cc..i always luv walkin in e cold weather at nite through tt path frm cc to hm..duno y..wheneva i walk tt path, i wil start to tink of stuffs..missin him n stuffs..haiz..den i wil start tinkin.."hw i wish i gt a bf to send mi hm n walk tt path wif mi everytime i end trainin, at nite??".."hw i wish 'X' is beside mi walkin, sendin mi hm??"..haiz..bt i noe i tink too much le..its totally impossible..he nw dun even wana care mi le..wad more send mi hm..furthermore even if he wan, he oso cant send..he gt probation at 9pm..my trainin end at 10pm..he alreadi at hm le..haiz..so sad..sobz.. :'( oh ya..shit..nw i'm even more sad le..noe y?? coz i suddenly rmb tt tis sat nite de outin to boat quay to celebrate zheng liang's birthdae is meet at 9pm at superbowl..'X' should b at hm le..so i dun tink he's goin le..haiz..i miss an outin wif him n his frenz le..so sianz..ahhh!!!i wana cry!!!so hopeless n helpless de mi!!!i reali reali luv him veri veri much!!! y??? y??? y??? y u always like to make mi in tis state??? u reali hate mi tt much ma??? haiz..sobz.. :'( u reali do luv hurtin mi..haiz..before i reali start cryin, tink i beta faster go slp ba..den i wun tink so much le..hope tml wil b a beta dae..oh ya..tml is zheng liang's actual birthdae..HAPPI BIRTHDAE TO HIM!!! lolz..i alreadi msg him wish him le..haha..even before his birthdae rch man..haha..veri fast n early hor?? lolz..aniwae hope he enjoy himself tml..(^_^)tink i giv him his present tis sat nite ba..hehex.. ;p
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