♥Friday, June 27, 2008

14th day without baby
26th June 2008

Today went town with andrewkor and akira
first to FarEastPlaza
kor bought one shirt and one bermuda from LuoZhiXiang's Shop, "Stage"
they arent cheap at all
lols
kor's rich so its okay
haha :P
then walked around to glance at tattoo shops
akira wanna put more "ART" on his body
lols
but all are much more expensive than his friend there
so yup..forget it :)

then we went QueenswayShoppingCentre
ate katonglaksa there
hmm..not as nice as other places :x
walked around and i bought two ape keychains
one for baby and one for me :D

finally we changed 3buses and came to chloe's condo slack
play pool and stuffs
and there is when baby called me and we quarrelled
i meant good for him but he doesnt understand
hais
scold me vulgarity and hang up call
he might feel nothing or not much but it hurts lots to me
hais
sobs :'(
indeed i cried real badly
but my heart hurts even more badly
hais
why? WHY!?
WHY MY BABY ALWAYS LIKE THAT TREAT ME!?!
im his gf leh..
ive never ever have any bf who treats me this way de lo
hais :(

Baby's coming back tml
so i really hope..
TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY

EMO RUMIKO coming back again! :( :( :(

Thats all for Day 14 WITHOUT HIM

♥RumikoLoves
4:54 AM

♥Thursday, June 26, 2008

13th day without baby
25th June 2008

Today went to school for my LAN lessons from 2 to 4
then to je for ice skating
there's quite little hockey skaters came
like..andrewkor daniel jackson zhe joewe olly(yangsing) xiaofeng may(baby's sis) and her friend(qianhui) etc.....
i fell down several times
but the very last one is the most serious one
i sprain my knees!
Gosh!
then ive got a huge bruise on my left knee
and a mini one on my right knee
lols
but the big one is damn pain la! :(

after skating me andrewkor olly and may went over to 130 for dinner
i didnt eat cause unwell
then went over to baby's house alone to put my skates
when reached,may's already home along with willy(her bf) and baby's mum :)
had alittle chat with his mum regarding him
and stuffs..blah blah blah.......
rest awhile and i left for home already

so actually today's nothing much

Simply im just glad that baby called me quite early just now
and we managed to talk for quite some time
HAPPY HAPPY! :D

and also glad that may helped baby and me asked his mum
whether i can stay over at baby's house for that two nights he will be back at home
and know what??
may told me that his mum approved!! :D
and she seems doesnt really mind it at all
usually she will
thats why initially im afraid that she will disapprove

Back to my family
SUCKY FAMILY i should say
i have a damn stupid and lousy dad
he throw my stuffs where i placed them beside the toilet basin
when i asked him about it,he scolded me instead for anyhow putting stuffs around
so he saw already throw away
im like WTF!?!
i never misplaced it lo
he throw away my stuff is already his fault but instead he lectured me in return??
even mum also shakes her head lo
disappointed with her husband of course
now i have to go buy that stuff once again
FUCK!
mum was right when she say "JIA BU XIANG JIA"
which is a home which doesnt look like one

another one is bro
sibei siao one
recently damn jialat
especially just now,he mood swing damn worst
one moment im like watching tv with him laughing here and there
another moment when the show ends,he shouted at me
scold me over nothing
and even threatens to slap or hit me
im like WTF!?! AGAIN..
hais
how i wish i can live on my own
have my own privacy
and live my life a fulfilled one
BUT BRO IS OBSTRUCTING ME TO DO SO......
hais sobs :'(

"I need you baby
very much..!
my whole heart and mind..
mentally..
ALL FALLING APART!!
i really might just collapsed just like that anytime
and i really wish you will be by my side..
I LOVE YOU, KELVIN CHUA YIXIANG!!!" x3

Thats all for Day 13 WITHOUT HIM

` Waiting For You `

♥RumikoLoves
3:19 AM

♥Wednesday, June 25, 2008

12th day without baby
24th June 2008

Today went over to baby house
to tidy up his room before he's back on friday
i wanna let him be able to rest comfortably when back home
went over when may(his sis) is around
had alittle chat with her before starting my chores
did 2plus hours of chores nonstop
time really flies
and theres so much to clean
his table is damn damn dusty
gosh!
i clean till the pail of water totally black already
haiyo..
but i was real glad and satisfied after i have rearranged and clean everything :D
HOPE BABY WILL LIKE IT WHEN HE'S BACK! ^.^

After everything's done,i left his house with may
she going over je for piano lesson
and im going over rink to meet akira andrewkor and abz
we went kfc cause im hungry :(
then to arcade play afew rounds of initial d
after awhile,akira's bro and bro's gf came
akira and his bro went to play billiard and we all followed
slack here and there
just to wait for akira's hockey friendly matches to start at night

Hmm
i was glad that my idol jackson came today
saw him played in the matches and stuffs :)
but left before it ends cause im catching my last bus 98 home
and know what??
I MISSED IT! =.=
GOSH!
was damn upset la
cause i no money take cab home
hais :(
BUT..!
i was lucky to have this SBS driver helped me
he saw me miss my last bus at interchange
and when i walked out to the outside road,he passed by and offered me a free ride to lakeside mrt
as he was driving an empty and off-duty bus back to HQ
OMG!
I CANT BELIEVE THERES SUCH A NICE PERSON IN THIS WORLD!
cause its like illegal to do this
but he still helped me
and coincidently..MY MUM'S ALSO A SBS DRIVER!!!
Whahaha...!! :P
THANKS SO MUCH TO THAT DRIVER!!!!!!! :D

I was damn happy today to have talked with baby for quite long
he called at like 7plus PM man
usually he calls at around 9plus 10PM de
and just talked for like 10mins
but today we talked for more than 30mins if im not wrong
OMG!
if everyday also like that GOOD LE LO!!
lols! :P

But i was brought down with sadness by my bro when home
hais
as usual
HOME REALLY SUCK TO ME!
bro pick on me again
he keep bringing those past stuffs and mention and scold me all over again
hais
sian :(
scold scold scold
all he knows is scold me
but he still always say he loves me the most
BULLSHIT!
LOVE SHIT AH!!
LOVE MY ASS MAN!!!
FUCK HIM!!!!!!!
HE'S THE ONLY REASON WHY MY FAMILY'S FALLING APART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lesser and lesser family members
one by one leaving..
hais sobs :'(

THERES 2 MORE DAYS TO GO MAN!
2 MORE!!
I NEED YOU BABY!!!
I REALLY NEED YOU ALOT NOW!
CAUSE I CANT TAKE MY FAMILY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!
BABY FASTER COME BACK BA!
before i really concede defeat to death.........and say "byebye"..

Thats all for Day 12 WITHOUT HIM

` Waiting For You `

After tidying his table..

♥RumikoLoves
3:00 AM

♥Tuesday, June 24, 2008

11th day without baby
23rd June 2008

Went out with only andrewkor today
he wanna get present for OLLY(yangsing)
so i pei him
we went town
i suggested PlazaSing
cause there got more choices for presents
but kor dont want so we head out to Cine first
to settle our stomach
ate pasta mania
it was my idea
but in the end everything suck
their service are damn slow la
mine very fast come,kor one damn long
but we were having the same order!
hmm.....
at the end of the day we both had stomach upset
we wonder whether isnt sth wrong with their pasta
hais :(

Walked around cine after meal
kor bought his new earphones from Apple shop
then i bought my new sling bag from a pushcart at first storey
i love that bag man! :D
and also my new alarm clock from More Than Words
damn cute!
but they gave me a default one :(
so im gonna go down to Lot 1's outlet to get it changed :)

then we went Heeren
cause didnt manage to find anything as present there
walked around
and still,no outcome

then to FarEastPlaza
initially want go tattoo shop find kor's friend de
but today he isnt around
so we walked around continue looking for present
i saw a very nice and affordable shawl there and bought it! :D
but in the end i didnt manage to buy present again :(

FINALLY...
i manage to persuade kor go PS see
and he AT LAST agreed
and know what??
he indeed bought present from there
lols!
somemore 2 of them!
haha!

kor ah kor!
see la!
never listen to me!
but kor was right about sth
if he hadnt mention going other places first,i also wont be able to get my stuffs bought
right??
haha
anyway THANKS KOR FOR EVERYTHING TODAY! :D

Just now was damn upset and angry with my dad
but i manage to tolerate it and didnt talk back him
cause it was like him requesting me to help him do stuffs
but in the end when i tried to make things clearer,he felt irritated and shown me attitude
im like wth!?
here whos the one who needs MY help man!
GOSH!
come to think of it
i really feel that outsiders treat me much much better than how my family treat me lo!
why why WHY!?!?!
hais
THAT IS WHAT I MEAN BY NO FAMILY LOVE!!! :'(

Hmm
didnt talk much with baby just now either
cause his hp battery is really running low
hais
sian :(
when baby told me he'll get part of his pay when he comes out this friday that hes gonna get his adidas jacket immediately
then i was like damn depressed and hurt
cause where am i placed in his heart!?
always always ALWAYS THERES ONLY HIM IN HIS MIND!
I DONT EXIST AT ALL!!
when i started complaining then he rmbs me
WTF!?!
like that he might as well stay single and leave me alone!
stop hurting me!
EVERYTIME HE NEVER THINKS OF ME!!
NOT AT ALL!
ALWAYS LIKE THAT!
I ALREADY CANT TOLERATE MY FAMILY NOT THINKING OF ME!!!
NOW MY BF ALSO LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY DO I HAVE THIS KIND OF BF!?!?!
WWWWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats all for Day 11 WITHOUT HIM

♥RumikoLoves
4:10 AM

♥Monday, June 23, 2008

9th and 10th day without baby
21st June 2008
22nd June 2008

Ytd blogger lag so didnt have the chance to blog about ytd
hmm
ytd went sentosa again with akira they all
this time a bigger group of us
and we did have lots of fun there :D

There's me wilson alicia andrewkor akira and his bro and bro's gf daniel daffy joyce and last but not least chloe
akira brought his volleyball and i brought mine
got mine from laogong's house
damn tiring intially
cause it was like me rushing over to her house and retrieve the ball
then rush down harbourfront by mrt
to prevent akira saying me always late
it hurts cause no one understands the reason why
i also dont want it to de
im sorry everybody :(
but in the end i reached earlier than them
lols!
daniel reached long ago
went vivo look for him
bought coffeebean and the rest reached

whatever we did in sentosa
i guess anyone should know
as usual those stuffs
volleyball soccer and mostly water polo
had lots of fun :D
we also manage to see ndp's rehearsal planes pass by
making patterns and stuff
damn beautiful la ^.^

Time really flies
play and play
bath and prepare
already night 8plus le
went over to akira's friend there eat zu cao
had both my favourites STINGRAY and KANGKONG!!!
YUMMY! :D

then we all took bus home
i took 176 with andrewkor and chloe
then at batok changed to 187 back home
tiring but fun day :D

Talking to baby on the phone is the only thing that will really cheer me up every single day
awaiting for his call every night without fail as usual
even though im having fun
it was never been that fun without him
playing at sentosa always reminds me of us going the previous few times
ever since those times,going sentosa without him makes me felt lonely and depressed :(
i keep thinking how i wish when i close my eyes and open again,he will appear infront of me
which is damn damn DAMN IMPOSSIBLE
hais :(

talked to him a short while ytd night
but its a sweet one
so yup
only his voice can cheer me up :D
I MISS YOU BABY
I REALLY DO
VERY MUCH!!! :'(

As for today nothing much
trapped at home by my bro again :(
only manage to go out during evening
with mum to jp
buy some undergarments necessities and stuffs
spent around 100plus to 200
lols :x
cannot blame
BRAS ARE EXPENSIVE! :P

then bought dinner home for my that fucking bro
hais
this afternoon i wipe the floor
he complain this and that
scold me here and there
say i do thing inefficient
scold me idiot and stuffs
im really trying damn hard to surpress my feelings and anger
cause i really did nothing wrong this time
he just keep picking on me recently
for weeks already
hais
i can really feel the demon in me coming out while he's scolding me
im really afraid ill have mental illness someday
like depression same as him
or worst still spilt personality
i can feel it coming
i really do
hais
sobs :'(
LIFE IN THIS FUCKING FAMILY HAS NEVER BEEN GOOD TO ME AT ALL
honestly..I RATHER DIE THAN LIVING IN THIS FAMILY WITH MY BRO
BUT IF NOT FOR MY MUM AND OTHER BROS,I WOULD HAVE VANISHED IN THIS WORLD

Just now baby called me again
same thing
IM HAPPY! REALLY HAPPY! :D
his voice touches my heart
his words touches my soul
I LOVE YOU BABY! x3

Thats all for Day 9 and 10 WITHOUT HIM

` Waiting For You `

♥RumikoLoves
2:22 AM

♥Saturday, June 21, 2008

8th day without baby
20th June 2008

Went skating again today
nothing much
just damn emo
skate halfway sit at one corner
damn bored jiu go take my ipod and cleo magazine out
sat there listen music and started crying

from that very moment i started feeling damn lonely
and this is what i hate throughout my life
BEING ALONE
FEELING LONELY
I HATE THEM!!! :(

Eventually i broke down in the rink
hais
i couldnt control my tears
im sorry
but still THANKS EVERYONE!
WHOEVER CONSOLED ME and BE THERE FOR ME!! :D
especially my korkor andrew
THANKS SO MUCH! FOR EVERYTHING!!!
SO FAR!
im really touched and appreciated :D

and also THANKS YEEMENG!
FOR YOUR LOVELY ADIDAS JACKET!!!
which i love it very much and hoping for one myself
lols :P
anyway Thanks for saving me from the cold! :D

Stayed back with andrewkor akira and rest after skating
akira they all had ice hockey training
didnt get to watch my idol jackson play hockey today
dont know why
he didnt come
hais
nvm :)

Thanks to chloe abz joewe akira and shawn for cheering me up consoling and lending me your listening ears when im depressed :)
THANKS LOTS EVERYONE! ^.^

Oh ya
today my didi max drop by rink
although hes not here to see me
but still im glad to see him today
"didi..you better not have any silly thought hor..what dont have one didi nvm still can find new one..you want jie whack your head ma?? in jie's life..only have two didis..one of them of course is YOU! so you better not leave jie alone alright?? jie needs you de :) and for sure I DONT WISH ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO MY DIDIS! and I WILL TRY MY VERY BEST TO PROTECT THEM WITH ALL MY MIGHT!!! UNDERSTAND DIDI!?!?! ARGHHH! :( YOU'RE THE DIDI THAT JIE ONLY WANTS! NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU UNDERSTAND!?! hais..sobs.. :'("

Thats all for Day 8 WITHOUT HIM

` Waiting For You `

♥RumikoLoves
4:02 AM

♥Friday, June 20, 2008

7th day without baby
19th June 2008

Today went over to andrewkor condo slack from afternoon to night
akira and his friend(daffy),his bro(kaname) and gf(xueting),wilson,chloe,joyce were there too
brought my lappy there to use
didnt do much today either
kinda bored and dreadful

For the entire day im waiting and waiting
just for his call at night
always looking forward to every single day as usual
every night shedding tears as usual cause of my misses towards him
hais
but tonight's call was kinda short
cause he has got alot stuffs to do
so our call was shortened
hais
sian

Tonight's moon damn beautiful
if im not wrong its full moon today
baby was telling me its very beautiful
and i previously i saw it too
its like we are looking at the same moon
and i can feel our hearts connected together
the feelings like..SO NEAR YET SO FAR
hais :(

Now then i know how hard it is to wait for someone you love to come back
hais
i really dont know how much longer i can take
not that i will leave him for other guy
just that i miss him like crazy
and i might really go insane!
hais
i also have to tolerate being single and lonely for so long
its like months and years man!
everyone understands my pain and hardship
but only YOU DONT!
everyone's like encouraging me
telling me that i can make it
ask me to be strong
but frankly speaking..i rather DIE!
cause ZHEN DE BU HAO SHOU!!!
hais
sobs :'(

Akira was asking today that i dont miss baby ah
i wont sad meh
I AM!!! :(
honestly im damn depressed
but i chose not to express it out
cause i wanna stay cheerful and move on with my life
so that time goes faster for me
and ill get to see my baby soon! :D
i usually keeps my feelings inside
and express it all out when im alone
especially before i go to bed
every night i cry without fail
hais :(

Took bus home with wilson
on the way home i saw lawrence
so qiao
lols
STUPID LAW!
YOU BETTER TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF HOR!!!
if not you're gonna get it from me!
humph! :P

Thats all for Day 7 WITHOUT HIM
ONE MORE WEEK TO GOOOOO!!!!!!!

` Waiting For You `

♥RumikoLoves
3:12 AM

♥Thursday, June 19, 2008

5th and 6th day without baby
17th June 2008
18th June 2008

I spent my 5th day sleeping and resting at home during the day
cause i pei bro till 7am in the morning then sleep
hais :(
had damn serious headache
evening 5plus then leave home to meet akira and andrewkor at orchard
then took cab to SGH A&E
akira did tooth operation at his army camp previously
but it wasnt successful
so lots and lots of blood came out
damn damn scary
you wont believe how much blood he had puke out
till his face was pale and he almost fainted due to excessive loss of blood
was damn damn worried about him you know??
so i tried my best to take care of him while waiting for him to be attended
hais :(

Morale Of The Story: DO NOT DO ANY OPERATION OR SURGERY IN ARMY CAMPS :x

After everything's alright,we had dinner at SGH Kopitiam
then head off to MOS
to summarise everything
last night is the worst clubbing i ever had
WASTE MONEY
WASTE TIME
DAMN BORING :(

Left MOS at around 2plus
ate nasi lemak
bought snacks and alcohols at 7eleven
and cab off to andrewkor's condo slack
suan bian visit vanessajie
cause both live in Hillview Green condo
shuana came down awhile too :)

slack here and there by the pool
then fell asleep there
in the morning andrewkor ask us to go over his house continue sleeping
since nobody's home already

Here comes the 6th day
woke up at around 1plus afternoon
rush home bath and change
then bro woke up
scold me over minor stuff again
then drag my time
want my company and stuff
in the end i left home at around 5
hais :(

skate till night 9plus
then we went over to 130 eat dinner
took quite alot photos today
hmm
even though damn tired
but still i manage to enjoy myself ice skating
especially with andrewkor,yangsing,chloe and joyce! :D
i no longer felt alone cause with them around
THANKS EVERYONE! ^.^

Oh ya
quarrelled with LJ(lijie) at rink today
FUCK HIM MAN!
IMMATURE FREAK!
ACT ONE ONLY!
shout at me like want fight like that
but walk away like a small rat
HUMJI KIA!
YOU WANT JIU COME!
WUJI LAI!
FUCKER!
i guess what they all say is really right
he always F&T de
lols! FUCK & THROW!!! :x
he's lucky that i didnt really rage my anger out
if not he's gonna be real dead
especially when baby's in camp now and which im damn upset and moody
during this period,whoever provokes me is just courting death only
ARGHHH!

Thats all for Days 5 and 6 WITHOUT HIM

` Waiting For You `

♥RumikoLoves
3:05 AM