♥Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Yup..It's 2007 now le!!! A New Year has start!!! Yuppy!!! haha.. Hope this year everything will get better..My Studies, Relationship, Family, Finance and etc!!! Hmm..Last night didn't manage to blog cause was outside..At countdown..At Esplanade there..With Alvin Lee, Zhan Yang, Chin Wei, Xin Xian and her friends..Oh ya..And one more guy..Their friend..Think call Kelvin ba..Yup..At first, I went to Queensway to meet Alvin and Zhan Yang first..They ending work..I took cab rush down..Upon reached, Alvin took quite some time to end work..Don't know why..Then, we took cab down to Esplanade there and walk to Marina Square to meet the rest of them..But it's kinda stupid cause after meeting, we all had to walk back to Esplanade again..lol..The Esplanade area is damn flooded with people man..So it's kinda hard to walk around..Everywhere is squeezy..We manage to squeeze through a crowd and stand a little near by the river..To watch the fireworks later on..We stood there waiting think got one hour plus ba..Sweating all over man..Oh gosh..Then, finally the show is up! The fireworks think got last for 10 minutes ba..It's damn nice man..Afterall, the long wait is not wasted..While waiting and then, watching the fireworks, I'm thinking of someone..Someone who used to bring me to Esplanade there on every Saturday during the year 2005 when our National Day is at the Padang..Cause there will be rehearsals at there and fireworks will be put out on every Saturdays nearing the National Day..Missed those times when you hold my hands, hug me, kiss me, see those fireworks together and say that you love me deeply..You knew I love seeing fireworks and you sacrifice your Saturday nights to bring me go see them..instead of going ah ma's house..in the end kena said by your mother..Really thanks a lot, bee..For sacrificing so much for me..It's been half a year since we broke up..Within this half a year, our memories often came back..Especially when I went to places that we used to go..Afterall, I have to say..During that one year, two months plus of relationship, we really did been through a lot..A lot a lot..I really appreciate everything that you have done for me..Really..Even though I was the one who ask for broke up..Hope you understand why I did so..You should understand..I just hope that you will find your new love girl soon and treat her damn well..Don't treat her the way how you treat me, okay?? Don't regret again..By the time you regret, it's already too late..I don't wish you and her will end up like me and you..Remember what I have taught you..Don't repeat your mistakes..okay?? Hmm..okay..Back to my countdown..Yup..Was thinking about my ex during that moment of fireworks..Wanted to msg him to ask him where is he..Was wondering whether is he around to see those wonderful fireworks too..But the network got congested so i didn't get to msg him..Kinda disappointed though..After the countdown, we all went to clarke quay de pub drink a little..Except for Xin Xian and her friends..Don't know why they didn't join us..I drank a bottle of Heineken..That's it..Kelvin drank a bottle of Corona and Heineken..and he's kinda drunk..lol..He damn funni lo..Behave weird weird de..Cause he drunk le..haha..We all went out to hail cab but was damn difficult..Everywhere there's people hailing for cab..Wth..I keep flagging for quite some time and there was one cab who actually display 'hired', suddenly switch to available and stop in front of me..lol..We decided to let Kelvin board the cab first, then we take another cab..In the end we waited for quite some time and not a single cab we can hail..All are either on call or hired..We tried calling the hotline but all are busy..At that time, I started to find out that Alvin was drunk too..Omg..I actually didn't expect to him to be drunk from drinkin so little..Kinda shock though..I went to 7 Eleven from opposite the road to buy Lemon sweets for him and came back hearing from Chin Wei that Alvin had just vomited..Omg again..His eyes are totally red lo..Aiyo..But eventually he got better and we started to roam around the streets to hail for cab again..Walk here and there and we didn't manage to hail any..Kinda fed up..Me and Chin Wei suggested to go back to pub to chill till 6 plus then take bus home..But Zhan Yang and Alvin didn't want so ya..We didn't in the end..We walked till Clarke Quay Mrt there to wait for cab..From 3 plus, we roam till 5..Finally one cab came and we all felt a sense of relief..Board the cab and everybody is relaxed..Me, Zhan Yang and Alvin chatted a little and slowly Alvin fell asleep..I found out only when me and Zhan Yang were chatting and I heard Alvin snored..He sat beside me btw..He looked damn funni la..I see liao, actually wana burst into laughter de..But like that very pai sei so I didn't..lol..He really damn pig man..haha..Hey, so now you know who pig le hor..It's not me, okay?? It's you!!! haha..But I know you want me to say you sleep till very cute, right?? lol..Bhb..haha.. ;p And yup..I was the first one to reach home..But actually I didn't want to go home de..Cause I know my eldest brother still haven't sleep yet..Reach home le, got to accompany him..haiz..sianz..But no choice..All of them are damn shagged..Can't expect them to accompany me more..So ya..Got home at 5 plus..And just as I expected..He wants me accompany and I accompanied him till 6 plus, 7 then I sleep..haiz.. :( damn tired lo..Cause yesterday before going out for countdown, I did one whole day of house chores leh..From sweeping the whole house, to mopping, to washing the clothes and to cooking dinner..All the way I didn't stop at all..You can tell how tired I am..But today sleep till evening then wake up..haha..Okay..Alright..I admit I'm a pig..I woke my eldest brother up too and accompany him eat lunch..After that, I accompany him watch tv all the way till just now..Oh ya..Just now my parents quarrelled..All because of my that stupid Dad..Hate him lots lo..My Mummy not feeling well, didn't go work, sleeping and resting at home..He reached home le, find out no water is cooked, went to wake my mummy up and scold her for hiding the kettles underneath and nobody cooked it..Wth man..He don't know where are they, he can always ask any of us or find them himself..He just happen not to see them and didn't cook them and blamed my Mummy for hiding them..Wth..What kind of a man is he?? Bastard?? My Mummy didn't hide them at all lo..It's cause she cooked dinner yesterday and needed to put the kettles underneath in order to allow more stoves available..Can't he just understand that?? He's just a stubborn, irresponsible and ignorant bastard..My Mummy also calls him that in front of me just now..She told me not to find a guy like him and I swear to god, I WON'T!!! Sometimes she kinda regretted marrying him and I understands that..He let my Mummy suffer so much throughout these years le, what more do he expect from her?? She's already the bread-winner and tries to cook dinner whenever she's able to le leh..haiz..What more do he expect?? Can't he just be understanding and stop complaining?? Can't he just do a small part for the family like helping out with the house chores like a simple thing like COOKING WATER??? The whole family is already chaotic enough and is struggling, can't he just make life simpler for all of us?? haiz..sobz.. :'( Sometimes I just feel like ending my misery with just a cut on my wrist..But I know it's stupid to do so..But I just can't find a real reason to continue living in this damn fucking life of mine..Last time I used to have..Which is for my bee..He loves me deeply and needs me..Which keeps me moving on..Now, I don't know what I should live for and what keeps me move on..Definitely not for myself..Cause I suck! My life too! I'm just living for the sake of living..God..Why bring me to this world and let me suffer all these when I'm at such a young age??? Since I was born till now, all these sufferings never stop!!!

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