♥Tuesday, April 24, 2007

This week is really fully-packed for me..Got quite a few projects already..This weekend, my cousin from Malaysia also coming Singapore to play..From Saturday to Tuesday..I'm gonna bring her go Kbox sing at night..and also Sentosa, Orchard, Esplanade etc..Tml I also going Gym straight after school..Meeting Ah Mei and Ah Jie at Jurong Point then go her house there de Gym..Wana go train my figure already..It's time..Thursday I'm starting my Modellin Training too le..I'm like damn fat la..Haiz.. :( Friday after school also got activity le..Maybe meeting Dear go out..Watch midnight movie or sth..This week for me is really very busy..Haiz..Nvm..I will get through it de..I'm strong..LoL..Haha..

Btw I've resigned from Kbox already..But I will still keep going down to sing de..Hehe..My next holiday, I will definitely go back there work de..Love working there a lot..Hehe..Miss all the staffs there man..Haiz.. :'( Now that I'm not working on weekends, I've got more time to do other stuffs le..Like that also good la..Just that there won't be any extra cash for me to spend..Haiz..

Today suppose to be a very special day for me and my Dear de..In the end, it happened otherwise..Today is our first month..But he mention breaking up again this afternoon..Damn suddenly..All of a sudden, out of nowhere, that msg came..Saying he really can't commit in the relationship..In less than a week, he mention separating again..I was real shock..I couldn't take it and broke down..I was at Canteen 2 with my classmates..They all eating and I cried..I just couldn't control myself..I msg Jason and ask him for help..I wana go drink to make myself feel better so I thought of asking him and Derick accompany me go drink after they end school..But in the end, didn't..Cause I don't wana trouble them..Left school, got nowhere to go, stomach grumbling so I went to Godparents there eat porridge..I did told Dear I might be going drinking afterwards and he told me not to torture myself..Then he called me and we talked over the phone..I said, I don't even mind whether he commit how much for this relationship or rather I didn't complain at all..I didn't even complain that he didn't spend enough time for me, why is he keep worrying about this problem? Then he kept quiet..He started saying he feels that it's really unfair for me this way etc...Here he goes again..He asked that we separate first, when he book out in July then we together again..I was thinking and saying, what's the difference? Since July will still together, why must we break now? July also will together..Just stay the way we are now and there won't be a problem what..We will still be together even when July comes..I really don't know what the hell he's thinking man..Haiz..Then in the end, we didn't break anymore..Instead, I can feel that our bond is getting stronger..Going through all these stuffs really made our love seems stronger and stronger..I can feel more love from him already..He really do cares about me..and he's damn easily jealous too..He gets mad when he know the people that I might be going drinking with are guys..LoL..I also manage to get him say mushy mushy stuffs on the phone, in front of his campmates..Haha..Damn funny la..Hmm..I really do love my Dear a lot a lot..Really hope that we can last long..Although I didn't promise SF but she did bet with me that me and him won't last more than 3 months..Hmm..We shall see..LoL..Hehe.. ;p My mood really changed drastically..From super moody to super happy..LoL..In class, I moody till I really left out from my LAN lesson..Haiz..Laid down on the table and slept throughout..Really not in the mood to study at all..Really feel like dying that kind..Haiz.. :( Then when Dear called me and we talk it through, I immediately back to my cheerful self..LoL..Hehe..Think cause I love my Dear too much already..Till he can affect me a lot..Just love him so so much..

[[MelMel*JoJo]]

In the end, I didn't go drinking already..After eating at Godparents there, I went home with them, to their house..Watch TV, eat ice cream and etc..Relax here and there..Then went home at around 10 plus..Before I leave their house, Godmum stuff money into my pocket again..Haiz..Told her no need already, she started scolding me again..So no choice, got to accept..Godmum really adores me a lot..Since I was a baby till now..Love her lots too..

♥RumikoLoves
11:33 PM

♥Friday, April 20, 2007

It's the 4th day of my 2nd Year le..Lessons are still alright..Everything's going fine..Also getting along well with my 2 new groupmates, Kamz and XiaoLong..LoL..These are their nicknames..Today during presentation, we really cock up like hell man..Didn't prepare at all..Then the slides anyhow bomb de..Presentation that time, I anyhow talk and they anyhow talk then make the whole class laugh..LoL..It's really damn funny..And in the end, we manage to get through it..Haha..Weird huh? LoL..

[me.ah jie]

[me.ah mei]
Yesterday was Second Brother's birthday..As planned, I met Chun Mei and her elder sister, Chun Bin, which is also my Jie Jie..We met at Somerset MRT then went to Cineleisure eat Yoshinoya..Then, went to Takashimaya and Lido Isetan walk walk..At the end, we settled down at Taka's Coffee Bean and use laptop..Hehe..Then, they accompany me go Basement buy birthday cake for my brother and to Cine's Kbox to get my medicine from Bar..Stupid Ah Lam borrow my medicine last week and never return..Haiz..Hmm..First brother's birthday is on this Saturday so I thought of celebrating both together..Furthermore, I'm working on Saturday..Hmm..While on our way home, me brought up our childhood memories to CM and we really miss those days man..She also hasn't forgotten our memories too..Hehe..Afterall 12 years of strong friendship is hard to come by..When I look back, we all really have grown up..Everyone of us got ourselves boyfriends already..Know how to dress up already..Have become more matured too..Time really flies..Hmm..Went home, Second and Third brothers not at home..Msg them ask them rush home immediately and I gather the whole family to sing birthday song..Hehe..Afterall, I'm always the one who brings the whole family together..Haiz..My family is always scattered and shattered.. :( Anyway saw the smiles on my 2 brothers' faces yesterday really makes me smile too..

[I buy for brothers' birthday cake..Buy from Taka de..Hehe..]

Two days ago, Dear almost broke off with me..Shock me like hell..At first in the morning, I saw my horoscope in Friendster stating that that day my damaged relationship will reborn..Things will get better and the relationship will become stronger too..In the end, at night I received a separating msg from Dear..Is totally opposite from what it wrote..LoL..Afterall this kind of thing can't believe de..Dear say we separate for the time being..After July then say..He say cause he feels that it''s unfair for me this way..He's inside and I'm outside..But no matter what, I still find it ridiculous..If he really loves me, he wouldn't want me leave him de..I keep seeing no point of separating..And why after July, I also don't know..Haiz..After receiving his that sucky msg, I shock till I want cry out also can't..Haiz..I'm really very depressed and lost..All of a sudden, he mention separating..Haiz..Then, we msg till the next morning and then evening..Struggle here and there..The other reason he wana separate is cause he's afraid he don't have enough time for me as he's serving police now..I got tell him before that I don't mind and I keep telling him I see no point of separating and that I don't wish to separate..In the end, he ask me that if i can bear with it that he has very little time for me..I say I can..Cause for him, I'm willing to bear anything..And in the end, we didn't separate..I'm was real glad man..I really don't wana lose him and neither he leave me..I also don't wish this police thingy to be our obstacle..No time for me, nevermind..It's okay..As long as I know his heart is with me, he loves me, it's enough already..I trust Dear that whenever he can meet me, he will de..And also not that his training will last forever..Once his training period over, he will have more time for me le..All I need to do now is to be more patient.. =) Really love my Dear a lot..Really hope that we can last long long..4 more days will be our one month le..I wonder if Dear realise anot..I wonder if he remembers..Haiz..Don't think so ba..He so busy with his police thingy now..He must have forgotten our stuffs le..I thought of getting a pair of rings for the both of us..But I don't know if he will dislike it anot..Haiz.. :( Scared later he don't want or scold me for it..Or rather, should all these be done by him? I don't know..Tml evening he booking out le..I also can't meet him cause I'll be working at night..Then class till 5pm..What to do? Haiz..Ask him Saturday afternoon before I go work at night, we meet up, he say tml then give me answer..My heart tells me that he won't meet me..Don't know why but this feeling just came up..Think he going out with his friends or need accompany his parents..Afterall, I come the last..I must be understanding towards him..I really don't want let him feel that I'm a burden to him..I wana always stay behind him..Whenever he falls down, I will be there to hold him and bring him up..Always be there for him no matter what happens..Love him lots! Miss him even lots!

[[MelMel*JoJo]]

Oh ya..Tml and Saturday nights will be my last 2 work days at Cine Kbox already..Haiz..Sianz..Cause my whole family object me work while studying..They want me concentrate on my studies..Haiz..No matter how I persuade them, it never works..Haiz..But I really love this job a lot..Will miss it de..And also miss the staffs there too.. :( Next time long-term holiday or what, I confirm go back there work de..One Big Family We Will Always Be!

Indirectly, no work on weekends means more time to go play le..Hehe..And also can start and concentrate on my Modelling Training le..Told Colin Coach that I'm starting in May already..Hmm..Now sometimes weekends can go pub drink with Raymond, Teck Chuan, Kwee Leong they all le..And also with another group, Jason and Derick..They promised me de..Hehe..Jason also promise me to bring me go to my favourite place again..Hehe..He better keep his promise..LoL..You must have wonder where's my favourite place right? Hehe..Actually I don't know what that road called..Just that the night scenery there is terrific!!! Is Jason drive and bring me there to chit chat then I know de..Think must drive then can go there ba..Cause kinda far and if i'm not wrong, its at the East side..Jason..Didn't expect me remember that night so clearly right? Haha..Derick should know why..Hehe..The uncle also very funny sia..So dark and so early in the morning go there fishing..A bit crazy sia..LoL..You still go talk to him..Like li siao him like that..Haha..Anyway thanks for bringing me there that night..I really love that place a lot..Honestly..Ever since you brought me there..That's my only favourite place in Singapore..Serious..Thanks a lot!

This school semester, I will also start to concentrate more le..Really need to buck up le..Dear jia you for his police, I jia you for my studies..Hehe.. ;p Really miss him a lot... :'(

♥RumikoLoves
4:33 AM

♥Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Here I am back to blogging again...Been always busy working almost every night...Finally today school starts and my Full-Time Job is finished few days ago...Now switch to Part-Time le...Working only on Friday and Saturday nights...Today some lessons are at different classes already...So there are changes in my classmates too...Except Fazil and Bala...Has been same classes as them for both majors...Was kinda disappointed cause can't spend all my lessons with SF le...Haiz...Only DB and OOAD lessons then together...But anyway SF promised that she will still be with me after class de so yup...Hehe...Was glad to hear that from her... ;p Hmm..Today got to print my time table le...Really sucks...Every Monday got lessons till 6pm...Damn shag man...Friday too...Till 5pm...IS...Haiz...But at least it starts at 1pm...I only like Wednesday cause lessons starts at 12pm and till 4pm only...Hehe... ;p Oh ya...Today also got to know a few new INTERESTING classmates...Haha...Overall today's school is alright ba...Find DB's lecturer damn bored...LAN's lecturer a bit less bored...EBF's lecturer still acceptable...Hehe...At least he manage to keep me awake during his lessons...That's good...Hehe...and ya...He's EBF Module Leader...LoL...Hmm...Think that's all for school...Oh ya...Saw Xiao Qiang at Cheers there...Very qiao hor?? Didn't expect to see him in school...Haha...But he let me see him really suay him like hell...Cause once I see him, I beat him up like hell...Haha...Cause he left me alone on the transport van being bullied by his fellow colleagues...Haiz...LoL...He should know what I mean...

After school, I went to Godparents' stall to eat porridge again...Miss their porridge a lot...Then I received a msg from Dear...Not a good one...I read liao, shock...I no need wonder also know who told him stuffs...But the truth is me and Captain Ryan are just FRIENDS...No more than that...Ya...We are kinda close but as friends...Last week we work at the same zone so we got to chat a little more with each other...Send comments to each other in Friendster...But just as friends, we do that...Or rather, I treat him like an elder brother of mine...So people tend to mistaken our relationship...Furthermore, he himself has a girlfriend and me myself has a boyfriend...Dear is the one and only in my heart...No one else can replace him in my heart...That's for sure...So Dear got to trust me...Like how Dear wanted me to trust him the previous time...He just can't imagine how much I miss him...Must wait till next Friday for him to book out then can see him...I've always been looking forward to that day...Even till now...TRUST is the most important thing in a relationship...Without that, a relationship can't go on at all...

Oh ya...Was kinda shock Chun Mei contacted me this morning...Ask me out one of these days...She's been my BEST FRIEND since Primary One...Hmm...12 years of friendship?? Yup...Hehe...Although we seldom contact each other but we know that we are always there for each other no matter what happens...That's why our friendship never fades...Hehe... ;) I'm also very close with her family and relatives...Played together since young...With her sisters and cousins too...She also used to be my neighbour for years during Primary School...Really miss those days man...Went cycling, playgrounds, ice creams, factories and etc...Haha...Factories?? You must be wondering...Haha...She should know what I'm talking about...Those days man...Haiz...Memorable...I've decided to spend my this Wednesday with her and her sisters...We might be going Kbox to sing...Hehe...We both end school on that day the same time...But we are from different school...She's from RP...Same as her elder sister...Hmm...Also kinda looking forward to Wednesday...Very long never go out with them le... :(

I'm disappointed that you didn't trust me for that but I'm not angry at all...and instead, I felt upset and sorry for making you misunderstand...Maybe I have been too close to Ryan...I know my limits, okay? You too...Must know your limits too...It must have been hard for you at there...But it's good that you can train yourself well and stronger...I wana see a stronger and fitter you next Friday...Hehe...Love you one and only, Dear...

[[MelMel*JoJo]]