♥Thursday, August 23, 2007

this is my horoscope today..although horoscopes are not reliable..but this is kinda true..

[You're to be congratulated for your healthy ambition, but is it keeping you from enjoying the simpler things in life? Today you need to think about how you are prioritizing the different tasks and people in your life. Do you put as much importance on lunch with a friend as you do on that presentation in front of the bigwigs? You should. Apply that wonderful ambition of yours to your personal relationships. Put in the extra hours that they require.]

true that i didnt apply much effort into my relationships already..not as much as how i did in the past..haiz..what has happen to me that changed me this way?

hmm..today de OOAD exam..i late again..haiz..worse than ytds paper..15 mins late..cause before leave home, suddenly asthma attack and chest pain..haiz..sian..now worse..fever..measure here and there still 38.2 never drop.. =( head really god damn heavy and spinning..just now when bathing suddenly vomit again..haiz..dont know got disturb my parents anot..cause kinda loud..but with all problems, i still got to bring myself up..to study for LAN exam tml..although confirm retain for that module as my class tests all F, but i wanna at least write sth tml..i totally no interest in that module..thats why..choose wrong elective le..sian..no matter how much i tried, it just wont get into my brain..i HATE that module..arghhh! now fever still need CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG! CANNOT SLEEP! MY HEAD PAIN PAIN!!! ='(

initially wanna give up on my LAN exam tml..dont wanna study..just prepare to retain..so at first after today de exam, i went out with my classmates..cause they finish all exams le..they never take LAN de..went clementi de pizza hut eat..i took lots of photos there..haha..got quite alot people ba..me, siewfong, lizhen, yena, ezra, shawn, ben, ryan, morgan and kengtheng..it was damn fun with them..laugh here and there..but kinda pai sei too..they always like to play this and that..the cheese and chilli all over our place..especially MORGAN! AIYO! LOL.. =P but i eat till i broke..totally no money left..still owe shawn 2 bucks..haiz..
after that they wanna go nearby clementi stadium there play pool..walk till bridge there, i decided to go back..i think that i should at least go study sth for LAN, instead of giving up like that..sf supported me and she also joining me to leave..i send her to interchange, she goes up her bus, then i go another bus stop take my bus..see..i so good to my laogong..hehe.. =X

rachel didnt join us today..sadden..cause her bf booking out so she going to find him..come to think of it..quite a few of my class girls de bfs are inside army..they everytime like look forward to fridays like that..really wanna be like them like that..can miss bf..bf also miss me..then when see bf liao, both god damn happy..really feel like cherishing every moments with him..

last time me is like that..when melmel start to go in and first few weeks never come out..i miss him like hell..everyday look forward to his book out..still rmb..on that evening he first book out, i really wish to go fetch him..but he dont allow..everytime like that..when he first book in, he also dont allow me send him..like so scared let people know our relationship like that..cannot say out..plus i that night also got work..if he allow, i confirm take leave go fetch him..but i was so so SOOO happy to see him when im working..he didnt tell me at all..i work halfway, my colleagues tell me he come liao..i at first dont believe..then he pass by me and give me a TOUCH..i dont know how to say about that touch..but its like a SUPER SUPER surprise for me!!! he say he come see me de..although i dont know isnt true but im still very happy..hes very good at words i guess..thats why so many girls around him..he came with his friends to sing..cine level 8 kbox i mean..oh ya..and its my first time see him BOTAK! LOL..i keep laughing at him..haha..make him so pai sei..he fall asleep while singing..i off work liao, go change, then go into his room and find him..he sleep till very soundly..so hard to wake him up..so i let him sleep till whole kbox close then we left together..he want me send him home so i did..took cab to tampines, his house and i take mrt back home..
not long later, he say want break..haiz..long story..thrice he attempted to..give lots of bullshit..so i decided to let him go..everytime is guys go in army, their gfs run away..i different..is HIM RUN AWAY! i dont mind he not much time for me, he say he mind..say what cant contribute..i say he seldom meet me also can..one month one time, few weeks one time also can..when he book in, want meet friends out instead of me, i also dont mind..he say he just cant do it..BULLSHIT!!!
and yup..i foolish till after we break up, i still always look forward to fridays..go tampines find him..walk him home..then take mrt back again..i very bo liao right? i stay lakeside, he stay tampines..one head one tail..i like that also will do..i know..but i really miss him alot and just by seeing him awhile is enough for me le..
got once i go shopping, saw one nice tshirt, i buy for him..while walking him home another day, i give him but he told me he only wears labelled shirts..i sadden..i ask him throw away then..he say he wont wear but will keep..i hear liao, start to happy..lol..foolish me..even the shop staff also say so..say what he break with me liao still buy things for him..LOL..
once he ask me pei him watch movie..last minute msg de..confirm is no girl want watch with him so he find me..he knows i will go down no matter what..furthermore is watch at TAMPINES..convenient for him..and so i did..but he even complain that i slow.. -.- i stay at lakeside leh..haiz..rush down also need time de ma.. =( but in the end watch till midnight..i took cab home..30plus bucks! OMG! but to me is worthwhile at that time cause is watch with HIM..lol..stupid me..haiz..
sf, shawn they all always say me foolish..cause got a few times got class outings, i never go, instead go tampines find melmel..or sometimes leave them awhile, find melmel liao then go back find them..there are also a few times i go tampines, he not there..sometimes wait for hours for him to back home..sometimes i went back home or other places and made wasted trips down..afterall not worth it..he treat me like an extra tyre..want to stay with me like ai mei relationship but dont want patch..wth..alot colleagues and friends warn me before but i think otherwise..now i truly understand already..and i agree with my friends..
[[SHUAI GES BU KE KAO!!!]]

i was foolish to reject guys when im with melmel and when waiting for him after break up..i thought that if i stay faithful, he will love me more and treats me well..but i was wrong..i shouldnt put my whole heart into that relationship..all wasted..down the drain it goes..

i recently got tell my one friend that have he ever heard of guys go army but in the end break up with their gfs and not opposite..he say maybe cause the girl not attractive enough..not pretty or what..hmm..ive never ever think this way before..possible..maybe so ba..that im not attractive enough for melmel to stay with me..i thank my friend for helping me realise this.. =)

-me missing him

here are the photos taken today..hehe.. ;D

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