♥Friday, October 26, 2007

today after school jiu go settle passport stuffs le..kinda rush cause ICA closes at 5 and next sat im going malaysia already..got to get my passport done by next week..then rush down to cine meet joseph,xiaoben and yongxing..ate longjohn then went to newurbanmale buy my havanas..and yup..ko(my ex) is working today..he ar..make me bwg..say stuffs that make me pai sei infront of joseph they all..humphx!=P hmm..was stuck at num for quite some time..lols..cause dont know want buy black or white de havanas..white easy to dirty but match nicer with my clothes..black more durable,not easy to dirty but not as nice as white..lols..so in the end,i bought the white one..lols..maybe getting the black one another day?haha..see first ba..anyway ngeeann student got 20% discount..LOL..=/ today i was quite happy cause finally im getting my havanas..yuppy!hehe..^_^

oh ya..and i saw shuana working at cine de push cart today..haha..so qiao man..lol..but sad to say,yenny(my modelmate) isnt working today..disappointed in not finding her there..shes suppose to work at another push cart too..hmm......

although today quite packed with activities,still....he never slipped out of my mind at all..still there as usual,as always..i keep trying to psycho myself that he doesnt exist in my life anymore..the only thing exist now is the very photo of him in my wallet..thats all..and in fact,its true..today keep thinking how much will i get for my next pay..keep hoping that it will enough to buy his THAT present..and hopefully there are extra money to let me shop at least..hais..wanna buy some stuffs for myself to cheer up..when i have him with me,him there for me,i look into the mirror and see a cheerful,happy self which should be how it should be..but now,without him,i look into the mirror,i cant see myself clearly anymore..only the shag,lonely,bored,depressed and bleeding self..hais..ytd dajing also keep asking me why i look so sian..and frankly speaking,i didnt know i express it out..i just behave the way i am at that moment..

everybodys having their own troubles and problems..hiding all those pain in them..like me,xiaoben and joseph having relationship problems..yongxing having friendship problems..why cant everyone just be happy?why cant everything just go smoothly?why must there always be obstacles?hais..life really suck man..=( EVERYBODY!LETS CHEER UP TOGETHER BA!ESPECIALLY,JOSEPH!XIAOBEN!AND YONGXING!hehe..=)

btw thanks for you all de company today,joseph,xiaoben and yongxing..lets look forward to our next trip to bugis another day ba..hehe..;)

next week also a packed one for me too..thought wed and thurs will be free but in the end,wed kena booked by weixiang..he want me pei him and weikang they all go bugis..then thurs,dajing off..he want me pei him watch movie and eat again like ytd..can tell he did enjoyed himself ytd..i introduce westmall koufu de korean food to him and he likes it..except for the kimchi..he doesnt know how to eat that..he ytd still tell me that he wanna watch movie and eat the same food again next thurs..LOL!funny him..but indeed,im glad that i can make my friends happy..^_^

todays zhengliang(kacua)s birthday and he did ask me pei him and junjie(pongpong) watch movie at cine at night but i couldnt make it..and hes really god damn mad at me..hais..im really sorry to him but i really cant go ma..he is so god damn last minute la..hais..=(

took another one and a half cigarettes today..'stern' one with xiaoben outside cine and another one cig at cc at night,when back from town..dont know why..whenever i smoke,i think of him too..hais..sobs..='(