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♥Sunday, January 13, 2008
think SOMEONE misunderstood what i wrote in my previous post.that two guys from goodview who like me is cheefong and yongsheng.andy is later on de.anyway im now attached to andy.but dont know why i keep feeling that theres sth missing in our relationship.i feel weird.dont know why.hubby know i havent let go of HIM.hubby his own past i also not sure he let go le ma.but we both agreed to try it out.so i guess it takes time.but frankly speaking,i abit tong ku this way.cause my feelings are all so complicated.i know i havent let go of HIM.im so scared that it might be impossible.so afraid.hais.sobs.='(i do miss HIM at times.especially when smoking.everytime i smoke,i will think of him.hais.what should i do?=(LOVE and LIKE are so different.i know that i LIKE hubby.but not yet LOVE.i doubt myself for not LOVING HIM.whats wrong with me?why must i always go through this stage just cause i cant make myself to let go of HIM??last time with bee also like that.now also like that.im really fed up with myself.really hate myself!=(i really wonder how HES doing lately.heard HIS news.CONCERN but i dont wanna make myself to go BOTHER.it will be unfair for hubby.sometimes i really wonder.i dont think im still able to replace that girl's place in hubbys HEART.just like hubby still didnt manage to replace HIM in my HEART.hais.this whole thing isnt that simple.its so complicating.im frustrated with myself.
just now when on my way walking home,突然觉得今天晚上特别冷.
so COLD and ALONE.
i wonder why i will feel so.
hais.
reach home already,bath myself in COLD water to make myself NUMB.
NUMB from all those frustrating and complicating feelings of mine.
ended up coming out from shower shivering.
-.-
now wearing jacket at home.
hais.
btw sorry,darling(wanxin).for posting another emo post.instead of a happy one as promised to you.but just.i really cant help it.im sorry.hais.=(能给的我全都给了
我都舍得
除了让你知道
我心如刀割
♥RumikoLoves
12:25 AM
RUMIKO
