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♥Thursday, April 10, 2008


Recently alot stuffs had happened so dont really feel like blogging about all of them
Had been damn emotional nowadays
cried several times continuously for a number of days
then bought penknife from je pasa malam and cut my wrist again
hais
sobs='(
i wonder whats wrong with me

Lots of stuffs to stress over
stress over relationship stuffs
stress over family stuffs
stress over studies stuffs
stress over part-time work stuffs
etc etc etc

School is reopening this coming monday
and im afraid i cant cope with all of them
fearful
every monday to friday 9am to 5pm in school
then on monday tuesday and thursday ill be working after school from 6pm to closing
which will finish at around 11plus 12 at night
hais
sian
but no money more sian =(
got to cope with my hp bill
credit card bill
home broadband internet bill
returning my eldest bro money which he had fined me for making mistakes at home-.-

Im so sick and tired of everything man!
and i mean EVERYTHING!='(

Today browse through baby's wallet and found his ex's photo inside
he told me that he forgot to get it out
i believe him
i really do
but the moment i found that photo
it just hurts
so hurtful that i felt a sudden stab at my heart
it even hurts up till now
i just couldnt sleep
that incident cant get off my mind
crying now to ease my heartpain but to no avail
hais
sobs='(
he doesnt put my photo inside his wallet but instead i found his ex one
im like wth?!
hais
damn disappointed
but i know its not his fault
guess he really did forgot about it
but the problem is how can he forget such a thing?
i mean ITS YOUR EX GF'S PHOTO INSIDE YOUR WALLET!!!='(
i also did used to keep charcoal's photo inside my wallet
but i took it out the next day when i was with baby
it was like 2months plus ago
but baby havent took out his after we being together for 2months plus!!
im like wtf?!
although i chose to believe him but still my heart was shaken
as in i have doubts over baby loving me and giving me ALL his heart
am i sharing his heart with somebody else which i have no idea about it??
hais
sobs='(

you tell me , you're in love with me
like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
it's not that i don't want to stay
but everytime you come too close i move away
i wanna believe in everything that you say
'cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me , move slow
there's things about me , you just have to know

sometimes i run
sometimes i hide
sometimes i'm scared of you
but all i really want is to hold you tight
treat you right
be with you day and night
baby , all i need is time

i don't wanna be so shy
everytime that i'm alone , i wonder why
hope that you will wait for me
you'll see that you're the only one for me
i wanna believe in everything that you say
'cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me , move slow
there's things about me , you just have to know

sometimes i run
sometimes i hide
sometimes i'm scared of you
but all i really want is to hold you tight
treat you right
be with you day and night
baby , all i need is time

come , just hang around and you'll see
there's nowhere i'd rather be
if you love me , trust in me
the way that i trust in you

sometimes i run
sometimes i hide
sometimes i'm scared of you
but all i really want is to hold you tight
treat you right
be with you day and night
baby , all i need is time
......................

to baby : ` no matter what happens,ill always love you baby

Oh ya
forgot to mention
today went skating again
and im really glad to see my closest and best buddy wenloong there=D
havent seen him for quite some time
but sadded that when i reached hes leaving already
hais
sian=(
looking forward to our next buddies outing
really wish for it man
i really miss them alot
ahloong dapian hweehwee qian etc
hais=(




♥RumikoLoves
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