♥Friday, June 13, 2008
In case my baby doesnt believe me and think that im together with other guy while he's inside and leave himim gonna blog about my every single day without himstarting from today13th June 2008I just sent him in this morningreally cant bear to see him leavewanted to cry but i just cant cry outdont know whyhais =(
Went home and took a showerslack here and there lie on my bed alone nothing to dothen i started anyhow think lethink of dyingcutting myself to death..jumping off a building to death..smoke to deathlolsall those thoughts all come into my mind all at onceso i decided to go rink and ice skate with his friendsat least i may be able to feel alittle of his presence there :DAnd indeed i felt alittle better when im outsideskate from afternoon to nightthen stayed back to see his friends train for ice hockeydamn cool manand of course my idol JACKSON is playing too!hehe :Phe's like so damn fast lathen his actions all very nice devery smoothsee him play can make my eyes wide openlols :D
Then i started playing around leborrowed their ice hockey stick and played outside the rinkkinda funhaha
just that i keep hurting my toes =(
Btw know what??i anyhow take one ice hockey stick also happens to be my idol's one!!omg!lols! :D
In the end i reached home at around 1amlolsshare cab with wilson(baby's friend)
Although im damn damn tired and sleepybut still i couldnt sleep!haisi cant stop thinking of baby!! =(I MISS HIM!I MISS MY BABY!!!

THIS IS MY MOOD FOR THE ENTIRE DAY =(

ICE HOCKEY!!! MY IDOL'S ICE HOCKEY STICK! :D
Thats all for DAY 1 WITHOUT HIM
` WAITING FOR YOU `
♥RumikoLoves
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