♥Friday, August 29, 2008
Last night laogong didnt call me from camptonight alsotwo nights leim starting to get worriedusually he will warn me beforehand that he which day cant use phone call me or what dethis time no warning at allso suddeni wonder laogong's doing fine in therehais ! :(i miss him alot too !!sobs ! :'(Whenever i see couples on streets,i really envy themi will think,where's mine ?hais ! :(Being an army boy's girl isnt easy ..reallyyou must be able to tolerate the lonelinessto endure the pain of your love one not being able to be there for you when you need himto make yourself understand that your love one didnt mean to lose his presence tooyou might feel that have bf like dont have like thatBUT ..as long as both hearts are connected,distance isnt a big problemas long as both hearts are truly loved by each other,nothing can ever separate themSO ..this time nothing can separate me and laogongcause I LOVE HIM TO BITS ! ^^p.s. (when he's good ..)(when he's bad .. I HATE HIM TO BITS !!) LOL ! :xTml friday lelaogong booking out tml nightcant wait to see himgoing to fetch him :DLast night went out and came back real lateim too tired to bath so just changed and went to bedbut unfortunately,i got caught by my eldest brohais !DAMN SUAY!he likes cleanliness lots and set the rule of bathing straight back homehe's so mad that he shouted damn loud at me and resort violence on me once againhais ! :(he also punished me by cutting down on my freedomfuck !
since young i already lost alot freedom just cause he's mentally ill
usually as people grow up,they get more and more freedom
but me ?
lesser and lesser ..
hais ! :(
I REALLY HATE HIM TO THE CORE !!!!!!HOW I WISH I CAN JUST KILL HIM !ARGHHH !! :( :( :(Recently im desperately waiting for jobhais !cause im currently with Recruit Express Agencythey previously found me a job at Singapore Flyer(Ferris Wheel)and i signed a contract with them not to terminate work within 3monthsbut i only start work for two days,my agent and the manager there had some disputeand i stopped work since thenits been 3 to 4 weeks without job leim damn damn DAMN FUCKED UP WITH THEM !JUST A TOTAL WASTE OF MY TIME !!my agent say will help me find temporary job to replace first but none cameif not for that fucking contract,i would have went to find other jobs myselfit'll be more efficientIDIOT !FUCK !hais ! :(
` laogong<3laopo `
♥RumikoLoves
3:39 AM
♥Wednesday, August 27, 2008
cause 'SOMEBODY' keep complaining that my blog is DEAD so ..HERE I AM AGAIN ! :DDARLING !my blog alive le, HAPPY NOW !? =.=Previously DEAD because alot stuffs happened and i really dont have the mood to blogespecially the breaking up with babybrought me down tremendouslyand now i havent recover totally yet :(After many incidents,im finally back with babyopz ! sorry !forgot that upgrade to laogong le :Pshit la !laogong gonna punish me for that again ! :(Frankly speaking ..i miss laogong alot alothais !now school holiday,no work can findeveryday go down batok slackalthough better than staying home,but still ..sibei sian and lifeless :(how i wish laogong no need serve nsthen i everyday still can go out with laogong or go his house pei him :)Im really sorry for everything that happened previously laogong !sorry for hurting you so much so deeplyThanks for everything too !that you did for me APPRECIATED and TREASURED ! ^^Updates on my studies ..waiting for expulsion i guesscause i failed everything for LANcoursework .. common test .. etc etc etcexam i also dont know how to doconfirm die lei really hate LAN man !hate it to the core !arghhh !! :(Im only left with two choices ..1) End My Life2) Get an admin job and work for 1 or 2years to pay back bank loan for my poly fees and also save money for going SIM to take a diploma for the course that i truly interested(Management Studies)Which is better ?BUT ..if i really get expelled from school,i dont know how to tell my brohes gonna beat me to deathi rather end my life myself insteadhais :(CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO ?
` laogong<3laopo `
♥RumikoLoves
1:32 AM